Over the last month we have had quite a ride. The emotional highs and lows of going through infertility and all that comes with it can be quite exhausting. But I must say that I have an amazing God and an amazing husband. He truly is my rock. Well they both are...(One being quite bigger than the other!:))
So I just want to really write to say Thank you to God. This is not easy and and know someday I will look back and understand it. But he is good and has given me a peace that I hopefully can portray to others. I often think of where life will lead. Is this happening because he spared us from something? Is it because the child he decides to give us will do great things and be an amazing child of God? Is it because he is trying to show us something??? Gosh I wish I knew. I just pray that I stay alert and eyes and ears open to what God is wanting to show/teach us. I also wonder if because God is giving us a testimony (or an add on to what my life's testimony has already been) we will become leaders somewhere...speakers...teachers...the possibilities are endless and I do have excitement over it all. I am still reading about Hannah but I am inspired by the stories so far. If God wants to bring me a Samuel I will take it! And so it goes... whatver...whenever....BUT GOD.
I need to also state that as I type these hopeful thoughts and prayers it all isn't peaches and cream. I do have faith and believe it all, but I daily am having to give it to God. It is tough and the Devil likes to sneak in often. But I stand and and put that armor of God on and try to get through the days.
So it is March now... and we are about ready to start this journey of IVF once again.
Lord, I pray that as this month begins and we look to you to lead us and guide us that we be open and draw close to you. DAILY you are amazing and wonderful to us...and DAILY I need to remember that and give my cares to you. Lord I pray for your will and your timing of it all as we have done many times. Take my fear and worries and give me peace/hope/& joy. Something to keep my eyes fixed on. I do pray that you give us a child. THE child that we are supposed to have. You said ask and it shall be given. So I just don't want to forget to actually ask. I praise your Holy and Wonderful Name... I love you and continue to Walk by Faith.
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