Not my will...but Yours!

Today I don't have much...just that I love the Lord with all my heart. Just when you think things are done and over he surprises us! So I started a period...which in any other month is not usually a good thing but for us and this whole IVF process it's a great thing! I thought I wouldn't have one this March and kinda moved on and thought God's timing...well when I least expected it I got it! So now we begin this crazy process again! I pray so much that this time it will work. That God will take these two embryos and do miracles with them. I just need to RELAX!!! (sooo much easier said then done.) I actually had to chuckle today because in my normal chaos of a life I was spewing out all my crazy time lines...things I had to get done... places I had to be....and money issues to my husband and he looked at me and said "you have 1 month to get relaxed" cause in 1 month we start all the shots and hormone stuff and the doctors want me as "relaxed" as possible. huh.... too funny my husband calling me and and telling me to Chill. I think God is also telling me those things...sometimes it's with a slap on the head though.
Anyways life is crazy busy as always and I really pray that I will slow down and listen to God and give him these crazy worries of mine daily!!!! This weekend will be my fourth weekend in a row of baby showers or babies being born! So God is amazing and gives me the strength.
Lord, You are amazing how your grace is enough. I pray that you take away what I consider my daily stress and give me PEACE! I love you so much. I have so many people on my mind to pray for. So i will do my best to name them all knowing what you know their needs are: Bee, Mom & Pop, Scott Guilfoil, our Entire growth group cause you know we all have needs, Dave & Jackie, Scott and Jen, Melissa & Erick, Cara, Michael and baby Landon Lord...bring them to you along with Kenny and Robin! There are so many others Lord but you know. BUT GOD...i love you and I know the best is yet to come!