Perspective...

I am sadden by the news of a friend. Her and her husband woke up last Monday to find their 19 month old son had passed away. They don't know what from yet and haven't ruled it as SIDS but they are devasted. Since I've heard the news it has really put things in perspective. My life is not that tough. It is rough having to go through all this IVF stuff and really wanting a child but things could be worse and God could be sparing us from something happening. We talked at growth group last night of how we all really don't like the verse about God giving us nothing more than what he knows we can handle. It may be true but SOOOOO not easy. And how often we really don't want to handle any of it. So needless to say as we are in round two of all this invitro stuff I look even more strongly to God and our faith to get us through things. And I pray for Stacey and Sam who I don't even really know that through this they may find and lean on God.
As for everything else in life right now it is what it is. I love my husband....I miss my Grandma and need to visit her again soon. My sister found out they are adopting a baby boy in MAY!!! Crazy that she is going to be a mamma...and I will be and Aunt once again. That is ok with me as long as I get to be a mom soon too. (I know...what demands I have) I really am sheepishly asking God.! Life is busy between volleyball, work, and everyday life. So we continue to walk by faith and believing in him.
God,
I love you. Thank you. I worship and adore you. You know what I want and what i need and what we can handle. I ask and pray that you continue to give me that faith and belief but most of all the Confidence in what I believe you can do and whatever the outcome...help me understand it is greater then anything I could imagine. Thank you thank you thank you.