I am sadden by the news of a friend. Her and her husband woke up last Monday to find their 19 month old son had passed away. They don't know what from yet and haven't ruled it as SIDS but they are devasted. Since I've heard the news it has really put things in perspective. My life is not that tough. It is rough having to go through all this IVF stuff and really wanting a child but things could be worse and God could be sparing us from something happening. We talked at growth group last night of how we all really don't like the verse about God giving us nothing more than what he knows we can handle. It may be true but SOOOOO not easy. And how often we really don't want to handle any of it. So needless to say as we are in round two of all this invitro stuff I look even more strongly to God and our faith to get us through things. And I pray for Stacey and Sam who I don't even really know that through this they may find and lean on God.
As for everything else in life right now it is what it is. I love my husband....I miss my Grandma and need to visit her again soon. My sister found out they are adopting a baby boy in MAY!!! Crazy that she is going to be a mamma...and I will be and Aunt once again. That is ok with me as long as I get to be a mom soon too. (I know...what demands I have) I really am sheepishly asking God.! Life is busy between volleyball, work, and everyday life. So we continue to walk by faith and believing in him.
God,
I love you. Thank you. I worship and adore you. You know what I want and what i need and what we can handle. I ask and pray that you continue to give me that faith and belief but most of all the Confidence in what I believe you can do and whatever the outcome...help me understand it is greater then anything I could imagine. Thank you thank you thank you.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
April....already!
Well not much to say besides I can't believe how time flies. We are already in April! I didn't write last week because it was Spring Break and I choose to not sit at a computer very long if I'm not forced to. So anyways it was Spring break and Chris and I had a great week off! We planted a garden, did house work, small projects around the house...somewhat got back into working out...and spent 3 different days with family celebrating Easter.
And the most important thing is we started the shots for the next round of IVF. I really want to have the right attitude about the whole process but especially with God. I don't want to expect to little or too much. I am trying to give it to God. I did start and will continue to do acupuncture and while I hope that any & all of the meds will help with the process I know God will ultimately be the "de-stress" and "relax" that I need! So I know these journals are supposed to be where I write what is going on in life and where I am at. I feel like I do that and currently all I am focused on is having a child and what it is going to take to get us there. And really that is where we are at in life right now. I hope to look back one day and realize where we were at at this time in our lives and how far we came (with child!) Spring time... I sit and stare at a window and wish I could move my office outside. What a beautiful time of year....and what a wonderful time it would be to have God bless us with a child.
Lord,
I give you all the praise and worship for such beautiful days! I continue to ask for you to bless Chris and I with a child. You know are hearts desires and if there be anything blocking that or any sin getting in the way of that I ask that you remove it from us and our thought be pleasing to you. Lord I know you know that this is my greatest Joy that I look forward to and I give you all the glory and nothing else. I know that even though we are taking all these pills...doing all these shots...and all this medicine the Glory will be all yours when you give us a child (or two???? :) Just thought I would ask :-) I love you...and as for the list of people to pray for it is a long list as always and so I will mention a few...Our growth group...that we may continue to grow our relationships...Scott Guilfoil and Jamie and her family Lord bless her for every morning she talks to you about us and I want to continually keep them in our prayers too! I pray for Bee that you continue to keep her strong...and your will be perfect for her and where she's at. I pray for Dan and Carrie that everything works out for them with this adoption and anything standing in the way. Make sure I have a positive attitude towards them and love unconditionally. It is hard but not as hard as giving my only son for the whole worlds sins! I love you. For everyone else I am not thinking of you know who they are and I just pray that you draw them to you. Cause without you I don't know where I would be...little scary. Love you & praise you!
And the most important thing is we started the shots for the next round of IVF. I really want to have the right attitude about the whole process but especially with God. I don't want to expect to little or too much. I am trying to give it to God. I did start and will continue to do acupuncture and while I hope that any & all of the meds will help with the process I know God will ultimately be the "de-stress" and "relax" that I need! So I know these journals are supposed to be where I write what is going on in life and where I am at. I feel like I do that and currently all I am focused on is having a child and what it is going to take to get us there. And really that is where we are at in life right now. I hope to look back one day and realize where we were at at this time in our lives and how far we came (with child!) Spring time... I sit and stare at a window and wish I could move my office outside. What a beautiful time of year....and what a wonderful time it would be to have God bless us with a child.
Lord,
I give you all the praise and worship for such beautiful days! I continue to ask for you to bless Chris and I with a child. You know are hearts desires and if there be anything blocking that or any sin getting in the way of that I ask that you remove it from us and our thought be pleasing to you. Lord I know you know that this is my greatest Joy that I look forward to and I give you all the glory and nothing else. I know that even though we are taking all these pills...doing all these shots...and all this medicine the Glory will be all yours when you give us a child (or two???? :) Just thought I would ask :-) I love you...and as for the list of people to pray for it is a long list as always and so I will mention a few...Our growth group...that we may continue to grow our relationships...Scott Guilfoil and Jamie and her family Lord bless her for every morning she talks to you about us and I want to continually keep them in our prayers too! I pray for Bee that you continue to keep her strong...and your will be perfect for her and where she's at. I pray for Dan and Carrie that everything works out for them with this adoption and anything standing in the way. Make sure I have a positive attitude towards them and love unconditionally. It is hard but not as hard as giving my only son for the whole worlds sins! I love you. For everyone else I am not thinking of you know who they are and I just pray that you draw them to you. Cause without you I don't know where I would be...little scary. Love you & praise you!
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